It’s been over a month since my last post; and, like I said in this update, I’ve been considering abandoning this blog in favor of a new platform that’d allow me to earn money without getting abducted by copyright lawyers.
However, a friend whom I’ve never met helped me remember why I started this blog, and put my goals into perspective.
The Wisdom of the “Double Rainbow Guy”
I’m sure many of you have seen the classic video “Yosemitebear Mountain Double Rainbow.” If not, watch it below! It’s the purest expression of joy you’ll ever witness:
While I never met Paul “Bear” Vasquez, I became good friends with his daughter in grad school. We’ve kept in touch since we graduated, and this past Sunday I learned some terrible news: Bear had passed away.
I like to say that I’m not superstitious – despite being addicted to Ghost Adventures – but the night before I heard of Bear’s death I’d had vivid dreams of double rainbows. So, I knew I had to learn more about this man.
That brought me to the following video by CNN:
Many of Bear’s lines struck chords with me, especially when he said:
I never put ads on it [the double rainbow video]. I turned down all that money because it’s a video of God, and you can’t put ads on God. And the other thing is that I wanted to gift my most popular work to humanity. Like, ‘Here, here’s my heart, here’s my best thing that I ever made, and you can have it for free.’Paul “Bear” Vasquez
That last sentence hit me hard. I’d been so worried about money, and it had gotten me nowhere. By contrast, here was a man who was giving away his best work, and he was genuinely happy.
It put things into perspective.
The Jaguar and Allies is Sticking Around
Bear’s words also reminded me that when I started this blog, I simply wanted to help wildlife. It was only when I started feeling desperate that I began thinking about money, and that nearly killed this site.
This website is my greatest creation, although I hope to contribute more significantly in the future. Like Bear, then, I’m going to continue giving it away for free.
It goes without saying that COVID-19 put an end to many of the plans I discussed in my last update.
I’m no longer going to Belize, and I’m not sure if I want to keep pursuing paid writing opportunities. I hate sending out pitches, sitting at a desk all day, and working alone.
As such, I’m not sure what I’ll do. My goal for 2021 is to go back to grad school and begin working on a Ph.D. – assuming we make it to 2021 – but the rest of this year is a blank for me. I’d like to spend as much time as I can outdoors, although I haven’t figured out how to do that while still earning a living.
I guess that just like the rest of the world, I’ll have to wait and see what happens. At any rate, I’ll keep maintaining this blog, for free, until something better comes along.